Yes, you read that
right. A is for Anxiety. I have experienced a lot of it in recent
years. It was not until a few short months ago that I realized there
was a valid reason for it. What happened?
A friend persuaded
me to go down to the local mental health clinic. It tuns out that I
not only have panic disorder but PTSD. I am not crazy as some people
would have had me believe through the years. I am reacting normally
to life as it was thrown at me.
The irrational
fears that have cropped up through the years were actually rational.
I am now working to rid myself of the anxiety. A divorce will go a
long way in the relief because as it turns out when I look back my
nerves were the worse that they had been in almost a decade with the
man that I left.
Things are going
well now. There have been some changes since I left my husband that
are making my nerves slightly better. The majority of the last six
months were spent on a mountain top and I only drove once during that
time. In the city I was fine, the ice on the interstate triggered my
nerves. This is normal.
I am no longer
fighting the anxiety, but embracing it. I take my medication as
prescribed and even go out to the store to shop with the kid. The
shopping is doing her a world of good. The other day the anxiety was
reduced enough that I walked the single block from the court house to
the park.
That is why A is
for anxiety.
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