Odds and Ends

It has been a year since the night I left my third husband. I had only my youngest daughter, the clothes on our backs and a few odds and ends. Over the last year we've made a lot of changes, and they are slowly but surely proving to be for the better and the best for us. Grab a drink and reflect with me.

It was a peaceful weekend with only invited interruptions to our routine. We rather enjoyed it but it took drastic measures and hypocrites to get us to this point. Let's take a look at our lives for a moment, if you will indulge me long enough.

We like to keep to ourselves for a number of reasons. Namely sensory overload. This is when all of your senses work at once and you cannot shut anything out. Let's see what happens when we can't get rid of the sights, sounds and smells.

Go away doesn't mean stay but it seems to cause some to cling tighter to you. It is strange how they only want you  when they see you walking away.

The last couple of weeks have been filled with strange things. Some productive and some not so productive. I managed to have a doctor's appointment and have my medication delivered in the same day. Sit back and relax, let's chat.

There was a time when we thought of drama as something that was limited to stage and screen. We were children, as adults we learn that drama is not only in the real world but there are those that create it out of boredom it seems.

It seems that lately I am merely an observer in the world around me. I have nothing to do but sit back and watch, at least for right now. 

I have an appointment with the shrink today to check (change) my medication because I am not getting along with this one. The visit will not be long since we go from there to the pharmacy and she will send it electronically to them.  I renewed my Netflix on a free trial to see if I would use it, and signed up for Gamefly to see if I would use it. I have to entertain us somehow and trying before you buy it or subscribe to it is the best way I can think of to do it. I am going to be writing more and I plan to actually post regularly again. Now it's time to get back to work so I'll see you later.

My month has already been full and it hasn't even gotten started completely. Sit back and I'll fill you in on the not so glamorous details.

This does not yet have a title; instead all it has it a rambling that will not be silenced. I am not sure that it is ready for the world but it will not stop chirping away so I must let it be seen. Ready or not. My life is far from a dream, fairy tales are not what they may seem. The prince has a 2x4 instead of a smile, across my head, fleeing tears in my heart. I am not alone, yet I am scared.  Loving a man that is not obtainable,  wishing my way to pain. I do not want the time to be wasted, I would rather be basted.

This week has been a fun one; I began a new party before the last one ended. The parties are fun, and the format of this one is an experiment to see what is working and what is not. To borrow a line from Red over at M3  pull up a rocker and grab a cuppa. We're going to talk.

I am tired of people pretending to be things that they are not. This wordy Wednesday has the potential for a rant, please stay tuned or if you are easily offended change the virtual channel. It is your choice, and I will not be asking anyone to stay if it offends their sensibilities.

I am in the process of writing a new book and the research has been painful at times. Not in a pleasurable way either.

Warning: The following is a rant, and it is not intended for the faint of heart or the whiny. Those that are offended should examine themselves more closely, chances are what I am about to say will hit to close to home for you. One day everything is fine, the next your world falls apart. Why? Let's examine the potential for disaster. Where does it all begin? Truth. Collateral damage happens when innocent bystanders are hurt as a result of actions that were not aimed directly at them. Granting wishes leads those you grant them for to the realization they should have been careful what they wished for.  Wish Granted They say that you should be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. It is not up the wish granter what you wished for; that is up to you. When you get it you might decide that you did not want it at all. It is important not to tell someone something in a moment of anger if you are not prepared to clean up the aftermath of your actions.  Nu...

I've  decided to be Youniquely me, and as a result i'm having my Younique Debut Party! It's virtual, so you can attend anytime anywhere until July 15, 2014. Enjoy! Younique Debt Party!

Happiness seems to be rare these days. I have noticed a lot of people that are not happy, and few that attempt to fake it in an effort to keep the world out of their business. It is out of self defense that people do these things. Some of them are afraid that people will hurt them and others prefer to be alone. Figuring out the difference can be difficult, but not entirely impossible. Getting close enough for them to let you behind the curtain so to speak is all that you have to do. Reality is often why they are the way they are. It can hit when you least expect it, such as during casual conversation. An odd moment occurs when you have two separate conversations because neither of you are paying attention even though you thought you were both intensely focused on the conversation. The speaker might not be attempting to be rude but that is how they come off.  They could have simply stated a fact that you know but felt that there was no need for them to tell you at that moment....

There are times when people do things that hurt others just to make them do what they know is right. It is something that they do out of love, yes love. While difficult to understand at the time there can be a moment of clarity that allows us to see what we couldn't while it was happening. The things that we do for those we love to get them to do what we know is right are many and some of them hurt them. It's a simple concept that few understand until they live it. "I'll be the bad guy, I'll take the black eye." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVGm93II-UA Just listen to the words, it'll sink in soon enough.

It has been a week of confusion that is not going to simplify itself anytime soon. I am not sure when it happened but life is becoming something strange to me. The things that used to be routine are no longer the norm for us. It is what we are learning to adjust to. Through June 2nd I am hosting a virtual party . (The link will open in a new window.) It is a make-up party, the products are ones that I have fallen in love with instantly. It even makes me feel better just to put it on, even when I am having a horrible day. You can see the results for yourself. At the moment I am easing into wearing make-up again so you'll notice just some eye pigment, mascara and lip gloss. While I do not consider myself to be ugly, I am not ready to flaunt on the runway either.  The Younique line is making me feel better, and it doesn't feel heavy like other things I have used. In fact I have fallen so far in love with it that I am planning to become a presenter. I can enjoy the produc...

"Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers. Just remember when you're talking to the man upstairs just because he doesn't answer doesn't mean he doesn't care." - Garth Brooks The song is about a man introducing his wife to his high school sweetheart. He is realizing that things worked out for the best. It is a lesson that we all learn at some point. He had imagined that he would spend his life with her, and like many high school romances it didn't work out. Years later he is married to someone else and realizing that the memories he had are not what he thought they were at all. Time had made the picture less of a fairy tale, and more of a young man's dream. The reality he has is better than the fantasy he created all those years ago. Everyone has someone whom they believed that they would cease to exist without. The pain of losing them or never having them feels as if you have breathed your last. I have been told of those that die ...

It is always a good thing to have friends that are family; the ones you can rely on when everything falls apart. They are always there to lend a helping hand, and lift your spirits when it feels as if the world is ending. Then there are those that claim to be there for  you through anything and everything until  you have nothing left to give them. You should be weary of these people. The problem is that it can take months for their true nature to be revealed. You can be under the illusion that you have a friend that will be there through anything until you really need them emotionally. There are those that make everything about them no matter how badly you are hurting; these are the "friends" that you do not need. Those that are so self absorbed and arrogant that they make the assumption that any problem you have emotionally is directly related to them are those that you do not need. It can be frustrating to try and find comfort just to discover that you are only a friend...